OThe word of the day is inchoate:
- not yet completed or fully developed; rudimentary.
- just begun; incipient.
- not organized; lacking order
1534, from L. inchoatus, pp. of inchoare, alteration of incohare "to begin," originally "to hitch up," from in- "on" + cohum "strap fastened to the oxen's yoke."
"I was an ambivalent atheist at that point, beset with an inchoate loneliness and endless anxieties, contemptuous of Christianity but addicted to its aspirations and art."
- Christian Wiman, "I Will Love You in the Summertime", Spring 2016 The American Scholar (https://theamericanscholar.org/i-will-love-you-in-the-summertime/#.VzRq3dm9LCQ)